AWAYDAYS : Non-league in professional football

It was the last game of the regular season yesterday for us. And by us, I mean my local team VVVVenlo playing in the 2nd tier of professional football in the Netherlands.
There was really nothing to play for in the last game, we were 2nd in the table and that meant we were going into the play offs for sure.

We were to play Achilles ’29 and that is always some kind of special really. They got into the Jupiler League (That’s the league’s name) 3 years ago from the amateur levels and this season is the last time they will feature in the all professional league as semi-professionals. The consequence of their status is that they don’t have a stadium, but a proper non-league ground.

This was the 36th and final round of the regular competition & this is usual a time to reflect at our season. Whilst driving to our location, about 30-40 minutes from where I live, I could only think WHAT IF? We had a good run this year, for a long time it even looked as if we were to get the first spot. But lacking of quality in the games against the little ones, we drowned our own chances and now we were ‘the best of the rest’.

Personally it was a great football year to be honest, visited a lot of grounds this year. And to finish it off with a non-league club and ground in a professional league? OH MY WORD.
About the game, well. The pitch was terrible and I absolutely loved it. Just seeing the uneven things on the pitch and smelling that grass smell all over.
We were the better side and won 1-3, our striker has put 28 goals in the onionsack this season. He is the topscorer and we go into the play offs with full confidence and desire.

Obviously I have to try the food. That goes without saying. I mean come on mate? I had something to eat at home, but it wasn’t enough and in my opinion you don’t have the proper awayday experience without something to stuff down your pie-hole. So I just ordered a sandwich/bun with a big german sausauge in it. ‘Bockwurst” for those who know what I’m talking about. To be honest it wasn’t the best I had ever had, but fair enough.

It was probably really shit and when I would eat it now, at this point. I would hug the toilet, but in that atmosphere and the game excitement and all, everything tastes better!

I don’t know why, but I like lower league football. It’s pure, it’s honest. Just like at those pictures pal! Okay, okay these are a bit over/under the top. But I like the prices, less restrictions, enjoyable time, friendly people home and away & the culture around it.
Sure it’s still about money, but it is the fans that make the lower leagues. Not the commercial companies, not tv, not champions league or institutions. Just us in the stands.

On the other hand, the thrill of getting in those upper spots and competing for promotion gives me a real buzz man. It’s lovely to get 20+ wins a season and dream of the Eredivisie (the topleague in the Netherlands). Positive vibes all over the city about your results, love it man. Or the other way around and getting relegated, it hurts. It’s like a sword piercing your skin. But those moments are made in the stadiums, in the grounds. It binds people. The supporters are my family and I wouldn’t want to miss it for the world. It’s the only moment when my anxieties don’t seem to pop up and I just can get so emotionally attached to that thing called football.


That concluded our regular season and I for one can tell you that we are super excited for the play offs! Watch this space for my soliloquy about the play offs to come. We’re starting on may 13th and we will get promotion! (I hope)


I know you all.

Feeling a bit weird today, like living in two worlds. I thought I would read some poetry. This part is from Shakespeare’s Henry IV Part I and is one of my favourites. It defines me, it explains me and more of all: It gives me hope that everything will eventually turn out alright. You all have strength, sometimes you just need a little push towards it.

I know you all, and will awhile uphold 
The unyoked humour of your idleness: 
Yet herein will I imitate the sun, 
Who doth permit the base contagious clouds 
To smother up his beauty from the world, 
That, when he please again to be himself, 
Being wanted, he may be more wonder’d at, 
By breaking through the foul and ugly mists 
Of vapours that did seem to strangle him. 

If all the year were playing holidays, 
To sport would be as tedious as to work; 
But when they seldom come, they wish’d for come, 
And nothing pleaseth but rare accidents. 

So, when this loose behavior I throw off 
And pay the debt I never promised, 
By how much better than my word I am, 
By so much shall I falsify men’s hopes; 
And like bright metal on a sullen ground, 
My reformation, glittering o’er my fault, 
Shall show more goodly and attract more eyes 
Than that which hath no foil to set it off. 

I’ll so offend, to make offence a skill; 
Redeeming time when men think least I will.



Get to know me!

Time to get to know me! Or something like that haha. Just got some questions on the internet and maybe it will provide some intell for you to get to know me better.

OR you can just tweet or email me 🙂

1. Do you have a middle name?
No a specific one, but I have my given birth names. Since I’m a roman-catholic I was given the names. Marc Peter Hubertus. My grandfather used me to call Marcus Aurelius, the famous roman emperor and philosopher.

2. What was your favourite subject in school?
Consider the fact that I study history, it was History haha. Culture/society studies was a very good second favourite subject.

3. What’s your favorite drink?
Tea. Let me spell that for you: T-E-A. I really love drinking tea. It gives me so much life. Also close to number one, is number two Chocolate milk.

4. What’s your favourite song at the moment?
At the moment it’s Champagne Supernova by Oasis. The other songs I often listen too lately are This is how it feels by Inspiral Carpets and Can’t Stand me now by The Libertines.

5. Do you participate in any sports?
No, not at the moment. I twisted my knee badly in september whilst footballing in a match. I wanted to do some fancy trick of some sort, but my brain was quickers than my knee and yeah, still no sport for me. I also enjoy doing tennis a lot and on a smaller degree going to the gym (and obviously work out)

6. What’s your favorite book?
What is your favourite book? I like soooo many books, it’s outrageous.

7. What’s your favourite colour?
Yellow. No orange, Orange-green. I don’t know. I like the colour of food mostly.

8. What’s your favourite animal?

9. What’s your favourite holiday?
Any bank holiday 😀

10. Have you been out of the country?
Yes. I have.

11. Do you speak any other languages?
Dutch, German. Little bit of french. Learning Welsh.

12. Do you have any siblings?
One sisterrrrr

13. What’s your favorite store?
Where you can buy cool stuff. I think the adidas original store is pretty neat at the moment.

14. What’s your favorite restaurant?
We seriously don’t have Nando’s over here and I have only had it once. But oh my jesus.

15. Do you like school?
Yeah school is fair enough, I like learning stuff and keep on developing my abilities. Not a big fan of exams though.

16. What’s your favorite movie?

17. What are some of your favorite TV shows?

18. PC or Mac?
MAC. Apple fanboy hereeee.

19. What phone do you have?
Motorola Razor. Just kiddin’ peeps iPhone 6.

Okay I got a bit lazy when I wrote the above and I will do some serious Get to know me in the future. Now I’m just smiling and laughing at everything haha.



One month of blogging: What has it brought me?

I have had this blog for over a month now and I thought it would be a good time for me (and for you lot) to reflect on the first month/period. I had a few goals at the beginnen when I started blogging and yeah, let’s see how it all turned out eh! And thank you for reading my blogposts, it does mean a lot!

So my first and perhaps only goal when I started this blog, was to write my thoughts and emotions off of me. This could be emotional and personal blogpost or just sharing my passions, hobbies and lifestyle stuff. At this point I can say it’s not only therapeutic in the way that it will relieve myself via the medium of blogging. It also is relatable to other bloggers, who are kind enough to comment on my blogposts and sometimes say that it has helped them in a way. That gives me good vibes to be honest, interacting over the internet about life struggles or just passions. Good stuff.

If you read some om my more personal blogposts, you can see that I suffer from anxieties. Anxiety is different for everyone in my opinion and you can’t compare it 100% to other people. But what I’ve learned is that there is a bigger % of people who suffer from it, than I had imagined. I just found at that it was a particular anxiety and not a lot of different mental en physical issues, as I had thought for years (and with me GP’s ).
The support I’ve gained is immense and I know, it isn’t the most positive thing to suffer from it, but the support I have received is quite overwhelming to be honest. People, who are complete strangers to me gave me such kind words and helped me with saying how I could cope with it, it fills my heart with joy. The warmth I felt, felt so good. That I also gave that support to others. I can honestly say that supporting eachother gives you some sort of bond, even over the internet with strangers. It’s nice to interact in this way, when you just want hide from the world and just want to stay in bed and put the world on the pause button.

Motivation & Inspiration
The thing about motivation blogposts is that you want to motivate yourself first of all. It motivates you to write a post and further more you want it to be motivating. For yourself at that moment or for a moment later on and you need that motivation. What I’ve noticed is that you motivate other people as well with your posts, because of the post itself or your plans or quotes. I think that’s beautiful and I do have that too with other people.
Motivation is for me, activating people to do stuff you know. But that’s not my main goal, sure it’s great but inspiring people with my blog is more beautiful in my opinion. Why? Well I think inspiring is a thing that comes naturally, You do your own thing, you don’t write the purpose to inspire and that’s what makes it that beautiful I think. When people say that I’m inspiring or I tell that to others, that’s in my opinion the greatest compliment you can get for your blog.

TwitterI’ve started posting my blog links on Twitter. That was kind of a struggle, there are a lot of people I personally know on twitter. And MEH. What would they think of me blogging, especially as a guy there seems to be an ‘uncool’ vibe around it. They tell me. But I just did because I want to develop, progress and grow. So I just thought what the hell.
I’ve gained 70 new followers since blogging and followed a lot new persons with blogs and I can honestly say this made me happier. I interact more on twitter with people I don’t and get answers on questions, more like and retweets. It’s not about that, but it does feel good when you start a blog and post on social media, that you can talk about it. Not only about the stuff on the blogs, but also just things out there. For example yesterday I discussed the Junior Doctor Strike and Justice for the 96 on twitter with people from GB. I love doing that.
I’ve started to tweet a lot more and that has two reasons as I see it. I’m done with facebook and I see twitter as a more developed social medium than facebook. But that is my opinion haha.

Okay instagram is a BIG factor with bloggers. I’ve followed loads of people on there and gained soooooo much inspirations, it’s mental. If I have a critical look at my instagram, it’s nowhere near stylish or blog-ish. I don’t want that to be a theme or something similar, I just want that to be me.

This is one the most exciting new things I’d never imagined I would be able to do. Well I had the idea of writing a novel, but it was something I thought I couldn’t do. It was and still is something I haven’t done before so I’m quite nervous as excited at the moment haha.
Because it’s my first time, I made my journey open for everyone. Not only can I write little pieces of my process to you guys, but you can comment and give me feedback. Which I really need!

I don’t have really specific plans for the future. Just doing what I’m doing now and maybe some videos on youtube now and then. Oh! Wait a minute, perhaps I should try to write more organized on the blogposts. The posts are somewhat like, anarchy.


Monday is cancelled

Hello friends!Wow, wow, wow Marc. That was far too enthusiastic for this day.
Yes, as you may have noticed on twitter or just have run into me today, his is not my day. No fired up, pumped up, inspiring or motivational Monday. And I will tell you exactly why.

Well I got the feels last night while I was still awake, trying to get some sleep obviously. The proper smonday feeling kicked in, the anxiety of a full new week filled with trials, deadlines and meetings.. Let’s say, that didn’t make me feel like I was in disneyland.

After seeing almost every hour of the alarm clock this night, I finally cought some sleep at 6.30 in the morning., but yeah had to get up at 7.20. So a bit cranky to be honest, I took my body into the shower and then the most weird thing happened. I was in the shower for about 2 minutes, listening to some Blur song and then it hit me: I still had my boxers on. WHAT IS THIS SHIT?! Good gracious god, sweet mother mary.

Got to make breakfast and today is going to be the first day of my eating healthy journey, that didn’t lift the mood either. I didn’t mind it too much and got the work. Well I took the bike and 3 cars nearly hit me, bloody hell. I mean what is with this world guys? Some german bloke started shouting at me and I just replied back with the tone of an fucking army sergeant. Completely nutters. And him too.

And now I’m at my lunchbreak and I realize that this is not going to work. This monday is proper gone paddy. I tried to motivate myself 4 times today, but after every attempt, something hit me down. So the key is acceptance. – For a good blog and decent words about it, visit Sara’s blog. She does wonderful things with her blog. – I’ve accepted that today is going to be a shitty day and sometimes that’s okay.

I’m sorry I swear a lot today and being negative and nagging and complaining. But that’s just how it is today. I’ve decided tomorrow I’ll give it a go. As one of my favourite poets says: To begin at the beginning… (Dylan Thomas)


ps. This song is my monday in a nutshell