Good afternoon everyone!
On this Saturday I want to talk to you guys about something what’s troubling me and what is quite a part of my life. I don’t talk about this often and I feel like this one of the first times, I’ve been completely open about this: I suffer from Anxieties. To illustrate how it feels to me I wrote a little poem about the kind of anxiety I have and how it feels to me day to day. I realize it isn’t completely the same for other people who do suffer from it, but I think many can relate to it. Maybe it doesn’t make sense, but it sure did help me writing it.
This constant battle with myself
It’s tiring and painful
Yet I know
Someday I will prevail
I have thought a long time that I did have some physical inconveniences or I had just a small or minor depression that would pass by. I have seen a psychologist on numerous occasions, but I always thought the things I felt would go over like the tide will change.
However I didn’t feel better over all and that made me frustrated. I couldn’t put my finger on it and I think I’m person that needs regularity mentally and socially. I felt I became more isolated and at that time I turned more and more to twitter. I don’t know exactly why, but in my opinion the quality of twitter as a social medium did appeal to me. Here I came into contact with several people and bloggers who share the same anxiety feeling or a part of it and were willing to talk about it. That gave me the positive feelings.
I started this blog and I feel encouraged to talk about the thing I feel and experience. I think other bloggers gave me a sense of being and that I’m not alone in this. Ultimately that is why I’m now writing this blog and to give a glimpse of my life.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. The story might appear a bit messy as are my thoughts. It’s my first attempt explaining this. Thank you again and if you ever want to talk about it, please do. It could help the both of us.