It has been a bit of Monday hasn’t it? Well the day isn’t completely over, but we had a good run of another Monday. It hasn’t been a particular good Monday I would say, I don’t feel well and things went badly today haha. It set the mood for a terrible week and I feel like someone with a fork in a world full of soup. Yeah I know mate, deep innit?
I was kind of drifting of this afternoon and just saw a tweet about something I should read. It was this blogpost by Anne. Her blog is Annesmiles, really interesting and quality blog! (She’s also on twitter, go give her some love here)
This blogpost really reassured me about certain things. I do suffer from mental issues, but I always have this weird idea. This idea that I have to feel good all the time otherwise the day has been lost. Anne really touched me with this blogpost:
“You’re not going to be happy all the time. No one ever is. Sometimes you’re just going to sort of exist, and that’s okay. Learn to be satisfied with ‘content’ and ‘calm’ and ‘not sad’
Not sad is good.
Not sad is great.”
Exactly, decent stuff from Anne! But it also made me realise I’m making my own situation worse. I’m putting a lot of pressure on myself with different projects. Writing two book, awareness mental health for men, blog, podcast, uni, work, social life and that thing called Anxiety. What also makes sad and angry at the same time, is the thing that ‘we’ men can’t talk about our feelings, let alone our mental health. Too many people have been judging me for doing so and stating that this is a girl thing to do. You are not strong when you do stuff like that. If only I had the basic courage and attitude to say, fuck all of you ignorant people.
I’m sad at the moment, but what I’ve learned from Anne’s blogpost and just in general, is that I have to take a little break. Listen to myself, take time to do stuff that make me happy. Just a couple of days of me time and letting things be what they are.
Maybe I will write some blogposts, maybe I won’t. I’m just trying to figure out, what’s the best for me and if this little break really does help me. So here’s me, taking it slow the next days. I hope you’ll understand.
Thanks for reading this guys, appreciated.
(Pardon my English, sometimes my Dutch grammar Nazi thoughts are taking over)