Happy Birthday to my pal, Becky!

It’s the last day of the year and I don’t like this day, but there’s something positive and special about this day too: my lovely pal Becky’s birthday is today! This is  my  little present to you and thank you for everything you have done for me in the last months, you have really been a fabulous friend and can’t imagine life without you anymore!

Life is hard, I’m not going to deny that, but having friends like you is awesome. You are amazing. You are so kind, awesome, beautiful, intelligent, funny and so, so supportive. I think friendship is a lot about understanding. Understanding each other, differences. Appreciating different situations and helping each other where needed or when you think it would benefit a relationship. 

You are genuine, very kind, very intelligent, very funny and is a real good pal. You don’t need many words when you understand each other, so that’s flipping fantastic. I’ve honestly learnt a lot from you and your way of life and it’s very interesting to learn from another perspective. So Becky, I’m glad we’ve met!

You have been a fantastic friend to me. I know you think otherwise, but I’m telling you again. You are a brilliant friend. You have been there in my darkest days and have supported me, helped me and encouraged me over the weeks and look where I am not: Fighting. You have an uncorrupted soul, you are literally the kindest person I have ever met. There’s not a little dot of darkness in your soul. You are so kind, so nice, so honest, so brilliant, so intelligent, so beautiful, so stunning, so funny, so cuddly and so supportive. I thank you my friend for being the brilliant person you are.

Here’s a few poetic words – LOL I just really said that about my own words – that might give you comfort when times seem less good. I know you got this and are doing great, but remember that I’m always here for you. Because you are my friend, my buddy, my pal, my mate, my sister, my awesome companion:

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One’s strength is not measured in muscles
lifting or physicality
It’s not in what you appear to be
Or what other think you are
strength is measured in endurance
Patience, will, speech
and actions.
All of these qualities
Will be found in you
Like how Zeus’s lightening
Split up the good from evil
As strong are you
What makes you strong
Is the will to go on
Not give up
You are truly
caring and above all
the strongest person I know.
You are like when a flower grows through a crack in the concrete
It’s so fucking heroic. 
Shine on you diamond ❤️

You are so friend, kind, sweet and special. Your smile is one of the most beautiful things on this planet and every time you smile, the world smiles back. Because it’s so beautiful, like you are. Inside and outside, you shine on like a diamond, a gem, a ruby, an angel.

I’m so proud of you for everything you have achieved, for everything you do and for everything you are about to achieve. I’m proud for going on and fighting even when times are hard. I’m proud of you for being a strong person for everyone else out there, I’m so, so proud of being your friend and believe me: You are bloody fantastic.

Thank you so much for being your fantastic self and I can honestly not wait to meet you. Sending you big hugs buddy, you have deserved all the love and hugs. You are the best.

A happy birthday to you, Becky!!

your pal,


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‘Reasons to Stay Alive’ made 2016 better

I love reading, I used to read two or three books a week. But when my depression and anxiety took the best of me, I found that I was less productive and reading proved to be very difficult. It took time. There was one exception, it was Matt Haig’s  Reasons to Stay Alive.

I was at my lowest point at the end of August/ begin of September and I talked to my good pal Sian about it and she suggested a book. I was quite sceptical because what could a book do to help me with this feeling of depression, misunderstanding and feeling lonely? I’m glad I can say that I couldn’t be more wrong.

I am not really good at reviewing stuff, but I’ll give it a try anyway. I want to make a distinction between how this book is a gem for people who suffer and who don’t suffer. In my opinion this book is of great value to both and that’s why it’s the best book I’ve read in 2016.
As I suffer from Anxiety and Depression this book has been brilliant. I had this thought of my mental illnesses, the thought that I alone felt the way I did. No one else felt this way and to even think you could understand me, well that offended me. But then I read Reasons to Stay Alive. Every word of it made go: “Yeah, exactly Matt! That’s how I bloody feel!” It made me realise that I’m not alone and that isolating myself was also a consequence of my depression.

By sharing his own story, Haig has created a safe place for his readers. Sharing your mental health story is considered very brave and courageous, but it shouldn’t be that hard for people to share. It’s perfectly okay, to not feel okay. It are the parts where Haig describes depression and anxiety as a thing many people endure or have endured, that I felt more comfortable with myself.

Matt Haig has the amazing talent to perfectly portray the emotions, feelings and illogical thoughts sufferers have, with the right words and accents. I felt like I was reading my own mind and it was the first time that I could make a distinction between my own illogical thoughts and logical thoughts. This book made me feel less alone, made me feel like my feelings were valid and made me aware of how disrupting and debilitating a mental illness can be. It’s thanks to this book that I’ve turnt away from the idea that this world would be better off without me.

I often struggle to explain to people about my mental health, because they can’t understand it. They can’t imagine how I feel and that can be incredibly frustrating. This book gives an insight into the mind of someone who struggles with mental health issues. It gives one of the best explanations and understandings I’ve come across and it has helped me a lot by letting people read this book. If you know someone who suffers or you want to know more about mental illnesses, I 100% recommend this book. Educating people about mental health helps reducing the stigma.

It has enabled me to think the following: There’s light at the end of the tunnel. I might not see it yet, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t there. This book has been and still is a guide to me to find the light.



Blogmas #25: It’s Christmas!

It’s Christmas, pals! Merry Christmas to you all and I hope you wil have a fantastic day!

For me this is going to be a day full of gift giving, food, definitely all the food and good company. It’s day where I’m very grateful for everyone and thankful for everyone. Thank you so, so much for making life more complete pals. I can honestly not thank you enough!

I love you all,



Blogmas #24: A poem about recovery

Here’s a little poem 🙂


Blogmas #23: Why I’m still a Livestrong ambassador

This is a topic that is rather personal and perhaps a bit tough to talk about for me. But I’m going to do it anyway. I feel like it’s time to talk to you guys about it and why it motivates me to keep on going with this particular foundation: the LIVESTRONG Foundation.

After the big scandal with Lance Armstrong, a lot of persons quit the foundation and that is one of the most logical consequences of the actions of Armstrong. The actions of Armstrong himself, well I’m not going to talk about that. That’s for everyone else to judge, but I remained strong with the foundation he set up. And want to tell you why I’m still involved with it.

I became involved in the summer of 2010 and have been involved ever since. The reason for my joining was the pain I felt from loved ones who had suffered from cancer and had sadly died. But also the pain of lack of guiding and motivating the people who survived the terrible disease called cancer. I took it upon myself to get involved and do more for the people.
To be honest, I heard about the organization because of Lance Armstrong, but as soon as I read into it, I started really to believe in the concept of it all and I was really enthusiastic about their approach. It felt right and it was at the end of 2010, I decided to be an ambassador.

What does that mean Marc? Well It means that I donate regularly and  that I help the organization with promoting. It’s mostly focused on the USA, but there is an Europe movement as well and that’s where I come in. I try to keep the people within the organization motivated and help at events. I speak in front of people and tell them what LIVESTRONG is all about.

Since the scandal has occurred, the organization has had very difficult times. A lot of people leaving the foundation, as well as declining donations. It has hit hard to be honest.

Livestrong isn’t about one person. It’s about the millions of people facing cancer who need support as they fight the toughest battle of their lives.

I also got this question a lot: Armstrong has cheated on the whole world, why would you want to be involved in a foundation that does that? I always say the same thing. A) Armstrong isn’t involved anymore, but his work for the organization and for the help of cancer patients or survivors is just very great. B) It’s a splendid organization, which does good work and focuses on the positive. That’s one of the thing in life that I find very important: Positive thinking.

I think it has grown bigger than just a foundation for cancer survivors or for people in the cycling industry. It’s an ideology and it has grown. People not only join because of the cause, but also for the positivity that it has.

I wanted to talk to you guys about it, because it’s very important to me. If you want to know more about it, just ask me in the comments or hit me up on twitter.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.