I’m a huge fan of music, but sometimes I feel like I don’t talk about it enough. I should do this more. I’m always looking for new music to listen or new artists, but for some reason I usually end up with the same music. But a few months ago this changed and I discovered Pinegrove.
Listening to Pinegrove band whilst writing this blogpost, life is pretty good right now.
Usually when I recommend Pinegrove to other people, they are like: who?! and I was the same. The lovely Katy from katybelle.co.uk recommended them to me. Well recommended is not the right word I guess, but friendly made me listen to them. Friends who do that are the best friends, because they exactly know what you need. And looking back in time, I really needed Pinegrove in my life.
I wouldn’t say I’m a music connaisseur, but I am. LOL. So I was quite sceptical about what Katy recommended, because people recommended music all the time. This was different, really different. From the first hints of sound, I was absolutely sold. By the time I finished listening to their album, I was in tears, I just experienced one of the best music experiences since I discovered Oasis and wow. I was so emotional.
Imagine your first kiss, your first time completing that 5K run, your first time feeling the euphoria of your team winning a local rivalry in the 94th minute. Imagine that feeling of euphoria, love and achievement. It’s what I felt at the time when listening to Pinegrove for the very first time and it only gets better! It’s like a good wine, it ages fantastically. And some music out there.. well… they age like milk.
The music itself is amazing. It’s hard to describe what it feels like, you need to experience it for yourself. I’d like to think that it means something different to each person that listens to it, but I think the essence of the music Pinegrove produces is fantastic. For me it is the symbol of pureness. The raw pureness of life. Every song has a different vibe and for me that represents a certain aspect in this journey we call life. I think it’s incredibly tough to have such different styles to play and make it work, but Pinegrove have managed it. Not only managed it, they are brilliant because of it and it shows their creativity and talent.
When I talk about Pinegrove to my mates, I talk about elegance and certainty. I talk about the reviving of Indie Rock, where people thought it was dead. It isn’t. It’s alive and Pinegrove is the embodiement of that given fact. It’s like water to your soul when it gets thirsty. I talk about feeling the emotion of every tune and every word put out there. I talk about the incredible voice of frontman Evan Staphens Hall and the magnificent support of the instruments.
All the lyrics speak to me and give me something I needed in my life: brutal honesty. A reality check. They are comforting when needed, confronting when needed. I just don’t know how to explain it. It’s like a warm bath, just the right temperature. It’s like brewing that perfect cup of tea. It’s like making love with the right person and right circumstances. It’s what makes life, life. Pinegrove gives me life.
When Katy told me about Pinegrove, I was in a very bad place. Struggling with my mental health and feeling feelings of worthlessness and death. I didn’t tell many people about the severeness of the situation I was in, but I felt incredibly alone and perhaps a few weeks more of the foresaid feelings, would have had the consequence that I wouldn’t be able to write this. Yes, I was contemplating doing something horrible. I guess what people don’t often realise about severe depression or severe depression episodes, is that little happy things can mean the world. For me it was the discovery of Pinegrove.
They often say that there’s light at the end of the tunnel, even if you can’t see it yet. But imagine having no map, no light and no sense of direction. Imagine being trapped in the darkness, darker than everything you’ve experienced before. Then imagine this little glimpse of light coming in and like a divine intervention reach out and show you the path. The path you need to climb to the light. Well to me that was Pinegrove and Katy. I guess Katy doesn’t know this yet, but she has helped so much by talking to me and replying to my tweets. AND of course by letting me discover Pinegrove.
Depression often feels like you are in the water, but only your head is above it. People only see your face and say you have to act normal, while under water the demons are trying to pull you down into the everlasting black hole called death. Pinegrove made me aware of my strength and positive feelings, made my demons feel numb. Corrupt my hate and the lies my brain told me. And for that I’m forever grateful. I really am. Thank you.
Every time I listen to Pinegrove, I feel the lows I felt and I feel proud. Because I grew and became stronger. Pinegrove reminds me of how far I’ve come and that I’m strong. That I’m still growing. It reminds me of the strength of everyone struggling out there. And above all, it’s bloody fantastic music!
As I said before, the music and lyrics can mean something different to each individual, but they will mean something. It calms me down, it encourages me, it comforts me, it gives me strength. It lifts my mood when need, but it also identifies my sorrows when I don’t know what I’m feeling. The music literally means the world to me.
Thank you Katy, for being a brilliant friend and I’m really grateful for you.
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